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bigfatbreak · 9 months ago

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Birds of a Feather previous / next

#my art #feralnette au #birds of a feather #long tags #sorry I went apeshit in the tags #LETS SAY IT ALL TOGETHER NOW #I - M - A - G - OOOOOOOOO #its fun drawing marinette's back to Alya and having her appear stout and unstoppable and totally logical #and then you see her face and she's like two seconds from completely snapping and is keeping it together by a thread #as a note just because mari feels very certainly abt smth doesnt mean she's right. feelings can be valid and also irrational #in the throes of grief she decided it was better to be alone than to lose someone again so she started pulling away #and lila made pulling away very very very easy to do #shes also vaguely aware she's being unfair in pinning this on alya which is why she started spinning the drain on cockmoth again #legitimately all the shit that's happened to her wouldn't have been so catastrophic if he was never in the picture and she knows it #but the bitterness of her bestie choosing a fantastic liar over her at the worst of times stiiiiiings #alya's personal timing was bad but lila really took advantage of the fact that marinette had been acting off and weird #she basically clocked marinette as being unstable from SOMETHING and made up a lie about her #knowing she wouldn't have the strength to defend herself #between her social life going tachy bc of lila and losing fu in a way that felt like personhood death marinette was really put on the spot #and alya doing her thing of busting in there and assuming her bias is correct was a terrible combo #essentially marinette is highly unstable and alya is just realizing that #busting in and giving her a lecture when she's slightly hysterical and definitely delirious from exhaustion is NOT the way #to show her she's self sabotaging #cuz thats just gonna make her double down on self sabotaging. bc marinette will not accept that she is also a CHIIIIILD

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bigassbowlingballhead · 4 months ago

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guysguysguys.

guess what.

i did it.

I… I think I’m going to do it. I think I’m going to finish three whole books in just as many weeks.

#i really don't know who i am rn #i've read every day the last three weeks #finished three whole books #i feel unstoppable right now #i've got the extras in the back of the book yet #the preview of the sequel #and a short story????#but the book part is done #and good god #i love this series already #i need the others to get here immediately #reading tag

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lulu2992 · 6 months ago

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could you please teach us newbies how to read bark and code files? yous eem to know a lot about that and its super interesting

I actually don’t know that much about code or game files in general; I just learned how to extract and convert them thanks to online tutorials, and then I taught myself how Far Cry sound files worked through observation and deduction (as well as a lot of patience).

That said, I did eventually discover a life-changing “hack”... and here’s how it works!

#I posted that today #coincidence? probably not ;)#but seriously this changed my life #suddenly I didn’t have to listen to hundreds or thousands of audio files to find the right one(s) anymore :’)#I now bestow this hard-earned knowledge upon you haha #fc3 and fc4 files don’t work exactly the same unfortunately so they’re harder to navigate #...or maybe there’s just another 'hack' I haven’t figured out yet #97075B0E5B711CA4 my beloved #what would I do without you?#you can’t imagine how relieved I was when I realized fcnd and fc6 had this file too #that made me feel UNSTOPPABLE

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sillimancer · 2 months ago

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yknow when my therapist closed last week's session with a "so next week is the election please talk to me before considering dying" talk I kinda brushed it off but now it's two days away and there it is, that funny feeling once again.

#my diary #(feeling the need for a trip to inpatient amirite)#nah I'm fine I just wasn't expecting to dread it this much this time around #the amount of cognitive dissonance required to survive american politics is truly incomprehensible #the closest I've ever coming to understanding eldritch horror #there's a post that goes around here periodically that talks about how americans don't really have a cool kaiju like japan has godzilla #and I'm not really into kaiju media much but my friends are so I've been seeing more of it #and idk that post got its hooks into my brain and I got to wondering how a kaiju would manifest here #like what would that look like #but brother I think the kaiju is us #the american empire is the kaiju being inflicted on the rest of the world #and we're in-the-hills-in-the-cities-style bound to this unstoppable empirical monstrosity that's consuming and destroying the whole planet #and at this point in my life I feel like I woke up from the matrix but am still stuck and plugged into the battery pod #too weak to break free but you can't un-awaken (at least not entirely)#so you're just....... stuck in the pod and forced to occasionally re-enter delusion land to cast a ballot #like the ballot is going to affect the giant squid robots back in the real world somehow #this metaphor is getting away from me which means I'm ruminating so I'm gonna go play splatoon now #all this to say I hope kamala harris wins #and ha ha hee hee hoo hoo my therapist was right I'd get weird about the election even though I thought I'd be normal and fine

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literateowl · 3 months ago

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My immune system after getting the flu shot and covid booster at the same time

#r's personal stuff #i feel so incredibly weird right now #but after tomorrow i will be unstoppable #thank God my allergies stopped trying to kill me too #the important question is how many people will call out of work tomorrow #or school tomorrow a lot of students got shots too #needles cw #vaccines #covid mention

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pixlmonkeys · 4 months ago

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gonna be real I am already so over this whole medical issue thing

#I just want to be able to sleep at night and not feel dead all the time #next stop the cardiologist wahoooo maybe I can snag myself a pots diagnosis. hopefully #really hoping it is pots actually because then I won’t keep worrying I’m just being lazy or whatever #but other than that things are still not poggers #my neurologist is being very unhelpful ima be real #oh you can’t fall asleep? try meditating :)#girl I can fall asleep I can’t STAY asleep and I’ve TRIED that and it does NOTHING it just makes it harder to sleep actually #one of these days I will be unstoppable. one of these days……..#it’s okish right now because I really don’t have any real responsibilities but VERY SOON I will have to start driving and working and stuff #and I really want to be. you know. not feeling dead when I do those things #anyway ow my head hurts again #which reminds me of something else my neurologist said that pissed me off but I’m not gonna go into that it ain’t worth it

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good-beans · 6 months ago

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Success!!! 🎉

#just a productive day for me :3 #my rooms been a mess and i finally cleaned and rearranged everything -- it's SO nice now #i finished all this week's hw i procrastinated on until today 😅 but im happy with my essay!#i was able to chat with pals and peek at more manga #(im officially addicted to the little yotsuba&! tab open on my phone asdfgh)#i have some fic to read/comment on soon that im excited about tomorrow! and editing my own fic after getting good feedback from my sister 👀#not specifically today but earlier thos week i was called back for a job interview ;___; the phone interview was a disaster so i expected #to never hear from them again 💀 so to have a follow up in a few weeks is WILD im so excited ;__;#and all this on a night of super broken sleep!!! i am unstoppable!!!#(had a lot of sleep paralysis last night after not having any for a real long while 🤔 i just wonder why...)#we made it through The Horrors (<- literally just normal depression that kicked my ass extra for some reason) and we're back and #ready to party!!! (<- right now this means sleep but in general im feeling like a human again 😅)#hope everyone is well!!!#rose rambles

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himblebo · 7 months ago

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Thinking about the time I was unanimously voted my college’s “favorite lesbian”

#being relatively popular at a small weird women’s college was very interesting #I say relatively popular because I was not super aware of it at the time #but rather learned of my status when I started doing some part time consultant work for my college right after graduating #and visiting my underclassmen friends that were still on campus #I’m the kind of person where people were excited to see me again just so they could report that they are also gay now #I know a lot of people that did not enjoy their time at our college for a number of valid reasons #but god it was such a good environment for me socially and creatively #don’t mistake this for nostalgia because I was also the most mentally ill I have ever been while there #but I went there for a degree and ended up learning who I was as a person #which is not always a given #I really thrived there #and just imagine if I had been medicated then… I would’ve been unstoppable #that was gods way of keeping me humble #anyway #feeling that kind of community and connectedness now at work #in a very similar way that I found in college and have not felt since college #so very very good stuff

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camping-with-monsters · 1 year ago

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“Hey kiwi where are you? You’ve barely posted this week! In fact you’ve barely drawn anything! Kiwi what’s going on over there!”

I can explain.

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lesbian-thespian-paladin · 10 months ago

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Uh oh <- guy whose emotional problems are emotional problem-ing

#I like to call them emotional problems because I have ✨no diagnosed mental illnesses✨#you may say ‘but molly isn’t that just because you refuse to see a therapist?’ and you’d be right for that #anyway I woke up feeling absolutely unstoppable this morning and now I am Struggling to leave the house #because I am whole heartedly convinced that my friends secretly hate me #I love to pick one friend and entirely base my mood around how much our interactions make me feel affirmed! this is good and normal!#personal

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oh-cramity-its-amity · 11 months ago

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its so weird to read some of my old fics (do NOT do it but i'm just being hypothetical rn) and reading it. like who even was this person?? i completely was in a haze back in 2020. i literally was posting 3 chapters a day. A DAY. what in the WORLD was that shit.

anyway i remembered some STUPID sappy shit and i didnt remember if i'd put it into a fic or not BUT I FOUND IT.

She and Hope had been dating in secret for months anyway, and any attempt to go talk to Ryan only filed her disposition of displeasure upon knowing that she couldn’t tell anyone, Molly especially, it destroyed herself mentally. They couldn’t really go anywhere near the school, always having to lie to everyone about having projects together when Molly wasn’t around them. It’d consisted with 9 PM - 2 AM intervals of being able to actually see each other. Hope would sneak through her small bedroom window with a portable record player and whatever she had gotten from the vintage record store downtown, and Amy would always fall asleep around eleven because of her internal clock. She would always wake up to find a single sticky note stuck on the edge of her desk whenever she woke up to her alarm the next morning. One of them, Amy still had tucked inside of her phone case, a heavily detailed human heart, with blue and red ink sketched onto a neon pink sticky note, there was a caption that headed the small paper reading the phrase over every now and again makes her almost melt every time. “You have my heart.”

yeah idk why the fuck but i thought of this fucking idea again today and i was like "omg did i ever put that heart note thing in a fic???" yeah you fucking did.

all that to say ME AND WHO???? imagine. thats so fucking.... RAHHHH.

#NOT TOH FANFIC #see this is why i write fanfic. to enact some gay ass shit like this.#the fucking STICKY NOTE WITH A DRAWING OF A HUMAN HEART AND SAYING “YOU HAVE MY HEART” I AM ON THE FLOOR.#*sighs* sucks i cant reuse it on lumity though.#my friend making me realize i actually have rizz but am just too much of a disaster to actually understand cues with people #its a MESS. im just all over the place. i literally ranted to THE SAME FRIEND yesterday (or the day before??) abt some girl jesus.#anyway i remember writing A LOT OF POETRY back in hs about this one girl and then the same girl i got to talk to--#--my first actual conversation with her i blurted out that i wanted to shave my head. she was like.... oooooo god i was A MESS #still slid into her school dms during covid and was like “haha guess what i actually mf did???” anyway all that to say underlying dysphoria #they're nonbinary now too and i kinda ghosted them like a complete idiot :(. its been two years or so but i still think of them... a lot...#actually i have more lore about this person and its like istg they actually really liked me but i could not pick it up.#we had such SUCH good chemistry and vibes. n they were really pretty. ughhhhhh.#anyway yeah idk crushes are weird sometimes. the universe knows how unstoppable id be with a partner #i feel like i was the reason they were able to find themself and their identity because when we were talking i always encouraged them #and told them to do what felt right. im glad they did. i think sometimes that brings me peace. like i served a purpose.#STILL showed them toh. STILL SHOWED THEM TOH.#we were talking about amity LMAO “this green haired girl seems interesting” SHE SO WAS.#...yeah i wish i could text them but i kinda probably fucked it up.#shitposting shit #idk what this post is i just wanted to talk about this dumb sticky note thing because im rotating it in my brain and remembering how #mentally ill i was back in 2020 #talking into the void yk how it isssss

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shego1142 · 16 days ago

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I’m failing and I know I’m failing but please if someone can just tell me that it’s okay, that I’m allowed to fail, I’ve been given permission to fail and I don’t have to worry anymore I’ll still have a house, a home, friends and family and food and maybe a nice thing to do or something entertaining for a little while

Tell me it’s not all my fault, it can be some my fault but tell me it’s not all my fault all mine all alone

Tell me it’s not that everything is exactly this hard for everyone and only I am the one who is getting left behind

That can’t be it right? It can’t be this hard for everyone, right?

Tell me the bone deep weariness is a missing vitamin

Tell me the exhaustion and pain is a sickness

It doesn’t have to have a cure just don’t tell me it’s the norm

Tell me it’s not just excuses

Tell me you believe me, tell me you know it’s not just an excuse.

Tell me you have seen how hard I try.

Just let me know if I can stop trying so hard

Because I’m starting to think my best is not enough

So just tell me if I can stop giving it my all?

Tell me you’re proud of my attempts even if they don’t come with success

Even if they never come with success

Tell me I’m missing a vitamin

Me: You know how when you were a kid and you’d wish that you’d get sick or injured in a way that would justify why you didn’t live up to your potential?

Everybody, apparently: No?

#a lament for those who are also in the gifted kid to chronic illness pipeline #sorry this got real #but I love the vitamin post as a chronic illness metaphor but it definitely makes sense in a gifted kid to burnt out adult sort of way too #I don’t live up to my own expectations of myself #and yeah that’s my new normal but it doesn’t even have a name yet because diagnosis is hard af #I’m sick and tired of being sick and tired #chronic illness #chronic pain #sad #sorry lol #I’m okay I’m just venting btw don’t worry about me #had a good cry writing this #gonna fail some more #I know I don’t need outside permission but it sure does help #reassurance isn’t necessary but damn is it addictive #it’s just you know that feeling when you got so super sick as a kid that you were shaking and in pain and throwing up and everything #and you go to the doctor and they’re like omg you’re really so sick you need bed rest now and absolutely no doing anything stressful #and you felt like oh I’m being heard and seen my needs are being met #I’m getting attention and medicine to make me feel better and I’m not expected to do anything because I really am very sick and it’s real #the horrible awful way I feel is verifiable by tests and the experts agree that it is okay for me to sleep which is great because I need it #that’s what the missing vitamin is to me #because I feel like I can’t breathe and I’m exhausted and I am in real horrible pain so constantly #and I just want that moment of ‘omg we didn’t believe you I’m so sorry your needs have gone unmet for so long’#it’s not about attention or money or being let off the hook #I know I am sick I know it is real but I really need other people to hear me #I want other people to know it as fact and not as just an excuse #to know that if and when I am able to I will be an unstoppable force #please don’t count me out right now #but I just need to rest right now #I just need my missing vitamin

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deadtower · 16 days ago

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having myalgic encephalomyelitis is wild because i'm exhausted 95% of the time even directly after waking up from a nap and then. AND THEN. every so often. every blue moon. once every like 3 months. i wake up and im WIDE AWAKE and my brain works so good and i have so many spoons i could open a spoon store

#like you cannot believe how productive i am right now. like i feel like i could do anything on earth #it's so wild to me that this is how people feel all the time #if /i/ felt like this all the time... i know we have the tumblr post but like literally i'd be unstoppable.#i can get so fucking much done like this #i did like 6 projects for work that ive been putting off #i feel like i could stay awake for the next 12 hours and be good #which is NOT good because i need to be at work in 12 hours LMAO #well i dont have a concrete time i have to come in tomorrow so maybe ill go early or something so i can get out sooner

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neverendingford · 4 months ago

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#tag talk #wooooo I'm manic again hell yeah I feel amazing #also mwah mwah I love libraries I missed the feeling of walking out with a stack of books to chew through in a few weeks #I've got a few on hold but honestly I love browsing shelves and judging books based on their covers #it's fun to go in blind and seeing what you get #and I think I'm finally through my psych med withdrawals so I'm back to feeling great.#plus I stopped by the dispensary so I'm stocked back up on gummies.#they do a bogo deal on gummies on Tuesdays so I always double up and then I'm good for a couple weeks #also mwah I love my manic playlist it has so many good songs that make me bop so fucking hard #Hades Pleads by Parker Millsap just slaps so doggamn hard it fucks severely I love it #anyway. I love being unstoppable and invincible it feels great and amazing and honestly feeling this good kinda makes the depression worth #like. yeah I hate feeling down. but man I am flying so high right now it's refreshing as hell #idk. I don't wanna stagnate I don't wanna level out I don't want to be boring I want to be amazing #anyway mwah I love you all and I'm gonna go shower and maybe even floss my teeth cause it's been a while #I brush regularly but flossing just feels bad sensory-wise so I don't do it that often #but I take my moments when I'm feeling up to it and I go for it #it gets worse by mindless self indulgence is also really great #btw if anyone has any recommendations for hype songs that make you feel like you're an unkillable steam powered robot I'm always open #bye bye

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radiotorn · 6 months ago

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tbhhhhhhh i regret not going thru with starting college :|

#ow.err #i dunno ... i might end up going later in life anyways but ... i feel like i should have powered through my anxiety ...#once again i realize just how horribly overwhelming my anxiety is. like i literally need to be medicated for it so badly more than any othe #issue plaguing my mind. if i could get a grip on my anxiety i think i would be unstoppable #watever. thnak you brain for keeping me from fully realizing the weight of this right now so i dont spiral at 4am :)#SORRY i have been struggling. im scared

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wonderfables-moved · 6 months ago

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vent in tags don't rb don't worry it's chill

#i just don't know what to do #feels like killing myself is the only option i have but i really don't want to be one of those guys who is like Welp Im Killing Myself #sorry i'm trying to be funny about it but it really feels like I'm staring down the barrel of a gun rn #suicide feels like this unstoppable force coming at me and its like. there is no way for me to stop this event.#its going to happen no matter what. at least it really does feel that way. and I'm not like actively trying to swallow some pills #or anything right now. but the emotional abuse i am going thru currently just makes everything feel so helpless #ever since i was a kid i guess i knew it would end this way but #i thought i was getting good at fighting this feeling and pretending that my fate wasn't already laid out in front of me. but i guess not #i don't know. what do i even do now #how do i stop feeling like it is my literal destiny to die by suicide and how do i stop feeling like its getting closer and closer every da

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